June 27th, 2005

Would you believe that I'm still partly speechless about the camp? Well, in some ways I am. I can't help but smile when I remember the entire thing. Ah. God, You are awesome.

It was actually a normal camp...and I've been to a lot of camps already, I've lost count. I've been serving in YFC for 6 years (5, if you don't count the one year inactivity), but by far, this has been the best camp I've ever been in. From the start of the planning up to its very last minute -- every second of the "camp period" was an amazing display of God's power. Who wouldn't be driven speechless by that? All I could say about the camp was, "Astig. Ang galing." I can't provide any explanation or whatsoever that could probably elaborate how it became so.

On the personal level, God told me a lot of things during the camp. Firstly, I know that my energy for the three days was all from Him and nothing from me -- if I got the strength from myself I wouldn't have been able to stay awake. Second, He reminded me that I'm still His. It's kind of hard to explain here, but during the tongues workshop and the night worship, His message to me was I'm His, and that He is the only one I could live for. Which is what I really needed to know. He showed me how He provides and that I shouldn't worry about money matters. I've spent a lot more than I wanted to spend in the camp, and most of it wasn't for me but for the camp expenses. I didn't feel bad afterwards, though. God bless the timing of the Reuben Morgan ticket selling commission arriving. And though things are still pretty tight with me, I know it's gonna be alright. And finally, He made me realize that He doesn't forget the promises we made with Him. Kind of like in Bruce Almighty, when Bruce told God that he'd meet him on 7:00 on the 7th. He made me realize that He remembers everything we promise Him.

I also realized that I'm getting older, YFC-wise. I hung out with Tuesday and Engel during the second day, and we talked about..."oldie" stuff. Haha. Technically, I'm old in YFC years, but I'm still young in age, but reading Arven's letter told me I act like an "ate" to all of them. Which I would have detested immediately (I don't like being called "ate" because I wasn't used to it), but now I've accepted the fact that, well, I'm getting "older". Haha. Like what I heard from someone when I was still in high school based -- being called an "ate" means you are respected. And I know it entails a lot more responsibility, but I believe God put me here for a reason.

There are a lot more things I could say about the camp, but I'm seriously running out of words. Can I just say? I love it when God leaves me speechless. Weird for someone like me, especially since I love to talk, but somehow, not being able to utter a word seems a lot better than being able to describe every detail. :D

Before I finish this entry, let me do one last honoring to the people who were at the camp. I've been doing honorings since last Saturday, but one more wouldn't hurt. (Though I don't know if they're going to read this. ^^; )

To all the new YFC members: WELCOME TO YFC! I honor you guys for taking the risk of coming to the camp, even if you have absolutely no idea what is going to happen there. I am proud of you all, for committing to Christ and committing to YFC as well. Seeing all of you there in the camp is already a miracle, and seeing you all sing and praise God is even more overwhelming. I hope that you all will see what a wonderful life God has to offer you, and remember that we will all just be here for you, as your new second family. Looking forward to knowing all of you. :D

To all service team: It's been an honor serving with you all. It would not have been the same without you guys. I saw God in each and every one of you, and I am truly blessed to be a part of this family. Like what Rocky said -- this is just the start! We still have a long way to go, and it's not going to be easy, but we're all in this together. I love you all!

To the Docu team: Of course, special mention! Niki, Steph, James, Jay T., Gigie, Prince -- you guys made me proud. I'm blessed to have you all. I'll save the rest of my honorings during our household.

And last, but not the least, To God: Everything starts and ends with You. You're the BEST. You're AWESOME. You're WONDERFUL. I could use all the adjectives I know but I still won't be able to describe You. I don't deserve whatever You bless me with, but still You make me worthy. You love me without conditions, and I can only do so much to return that love. Basta, Lord, MAHAL KITA!

Would you believe I wrote this entry for the entire day? Haha. I did. Now that camp is over...I'm back to normal programming. Not much to look forward to, except for households, but I'm okay. God makes everyday beautiful. :D Yeahbah!

One hour till quitting time here. Haha. God's day everyone, hope you're all fine. :D