Someday
by Larue

I don't know if you're near or far away
But I know that I'm thinking of you today
I don't know if I even know your name
But I know that I'm praying for you just the same

Someday we'll fall in love
You'll be mine and I will be yours
Our hearts will be one
And our love will ever endure

CHORUS
Then I'll need you, and I'll want you
And I'll find you someday
Then I'll love you, then I'll hold you
And I'll be with you always

Our love will be so strong and pure
You will make me feel like I have never felt before
You will be perfect only for me
You will make these eyes begin to see

Someday we'll fall in love
You'll be mine and I will be yours
Our hearts will be one
And our love will ever endure

CHORUS

Your faith for the Lord will be strong
Even though I know the wait is long
And though I'm young I still believe
That you're out there praying for me

CHORUS


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Theme song anyone?

It feels so good to be back in the country. After three and a half hours of watching the in flight movie (it was First Daughter, in case you're curious), writing in my journal and re-reading Shopaholic and Sister, the moment we saw the lights of the city, my brother and I were almost giggling with excitement. Wohoo.

True, I missed Manila. Even if the moment I stepped out of the airport, I was greeted by dirt, heat and whatnot, it's still home. Like what I learned in First Daughter, nothing beats home.

Of course, I could do without this ear clog in my left ear which I have had since we landed.

School starts tomorrow and too bad our printer is not working. I wanted to print these sticker tags I made plus the O.C. Calendar for my brand new notebook. But noo. Oh well. Good thing it's only three days of school for me this weel, then I can print them (with all the needed schedule as well. Haha. OC!).

Things that happened to me in Saipan:
- got darker (snorkeling rules yo!)
- gained weight (pah. yummy food at Dai-ichi hotel pa naman)
- became a "babysitter"
- appreciated nature
- appreciated my family more
- watched The Terminal, White Chicks and Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.
- learned how to pack effectively
- learned that it's nice to refrain from something that you want (diet, ika nga. dibaaaa nadz?!)
- wrote 5 chapters of my novel (and almost done)


There's more, but I'm too tired to think. I need sleep. Good night world!

by Caedmon's Call

So you're gone but I know you're not so far away
You're a call on the phone or a ride on a plane
But that just isn't the same, yeah well

That's ok because I was never home anyway
So now everyone's evolving and I am just the same
As I was ten years ago, but I don't know
Maybe a simple life is more the way to go
Yeah, but then again, I’m mostly all alone

Cause I'm losing everyone
But I know I can't lose you
And maybe my time will come
But I know I can't lose you

Cause the older I get
Well the more that life is making sense
And it's similar to traffic or being president
'Cause I’m not the one in control
You grab a hold
I'm just a hammer helping to nail the future down
But it's getting hard making my friends leave town

But maybe I missed the nose right on my face
For what's just past it
And maybe I have the gift that everyone speaks so highly of
Funny how nobody wants it

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I love how this song is sung. It's very...nostalgic. It's about people moving on from one another and out growing one another and such. Really nice.

Wala lang. Hehe.

Well, Tabulas has a new layout. I'm missing my blue and green one already. Oh well. ^^;

I'm bored. Thankfully, the printer works already so at least I printed some things already. I want school work to start, weirdly enough. I don't know. I guess I hate having idle time. It makes me think, and I don't want to think about anything right now.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not sad. I just need diversions and whatnot because when I think too much about one thing I get attached, and that's the least of what I want right now.

We still don't have a thesis topic. Rye gave me this idea and I think one of them would seem feasible (local content, seems interesting enough). We just need a valid learning problem and somewhere to tie it up. And, the IS-RESM syllabus so I can work out a timetable for the four of us.

Aaaaand, I still have to fix some things for the practicum concerns of IST. Boogs.ph replied already and I'm still waiting for Xinapse Inc, Spoon Interactive Arts, ABS-CBN Interactive Media, Nickelodeon and Level-Up Games for their replies so we can send project forms to them. Busy eh.

I have a semi-headache and my left ear is still aching. Bah. I think I should go call my friend Ponstan 250 already.

Good night world. And my theme song's playing. Hee hee.

I finally got to attend the mass yesterday. Turns out it wasn't at 5:00pm but at 5:30 pm, at the PGP chapel. It was nice, being able to hear the mass. I mean, I do go to mass every Sunday, but I never got to appreciate it as much. And it's fun when I do appreciate it, like yesterday. It made me feel a lot lighter inside, and a lot happier.

Come to think of it, I've been longing to be high on God for the past days, ever since I got home from Saipan. It's like I'm longing for Him so much. It's becoming an excitement to meet Him every 9:30 am (which is the prayer time I set), reading the Bible every night before I go to sleep, and going to the YFC tambayan and talking to the people there who are all searching for God the way I do. It's refreshing. And exciting.

And now, even if I can see that there's a LOT of things I would be doing in the next days (thesis, campus tour things, acads, ist week, etc), I think I'll manage. After all, He's with me.

I love You!

I went to the YFC overnight last night, which ended up me not sleeping AT ALL. It was tiring, sometimes frustrating and can even be annoying, but it was worth it. We had lots of team building activities that I knew, but can't seem to remember how to do it again, and lots of other games that we played until the morning. If you could only see how wasted we were when the sun went up into the sky. =))

The most memorable part of the night was the worship, because for some reason, the song that Pdo chose for that night's worship were all something I want to sing to God. Wait, correction. There are a lot of songs that I want to sing to God, but the songs that were sung that night were perfect.

And now that You're near,
everything is different,
everything's so different Lord
I know I'm not the same,
My life You've changed
I wanna be with You,
I wanna be with You.
(Now That You're Near)


Tell me what You want me to do Lord God,
Tell me what You want for my life,
It's Yours o God, it's Yours
Do Your will, have Your way
Be Lord God in this place
for I want Your will to be Done
(By Your Side)

I offer my life to You Lord,
with all my strength I worship You,
And I'd give my all
Take me as I am
I am Yours o God,
Lead me to Your arms
And I give You praise
I rejoice in You
Till the end of my days, I'd give my all
(I'd Give My Alll)



God is good.

JARS OF CLAY IS COMING TO THE PHILIPPINES!!!!

I MUST WATCH THIS! I wouldn't miss this for the world!!!

Please Lord, let this push through and let me watch? Please please?

That is my new welcome note in my cellphone. I haven't had a welcome note there since I got it.

And talk about messages from God. Last Tuesday, I was having some kind of hard time doing the thing I promised God I'd do. Ang hirap mag-let go, especially if the thing you promised to sacrifice is something that you want. And so I went to the chapel at 5:30pm to attend the mass, and I was surprised at the day's Gospel.

Jesus said to all people, "If you wish to be a follower of mine, deny yourself, take your cross and follow me. For if you choose to save your life you will lose it, and if you lose your life for my sake, you will save it." - Luke 9:23-24

Amazing. And then the worship that night with YFC has this message: God is enough. Okay, Big Boss, I got Your message!

I am still having some kind of difficulty in giving that thing that I promised to give up to God fully. Sometimes I still try to pull it back to me, but then God would remind me of that, and I submit to Him again.

The way I write it, it seems easy. But it's not. I'll spare you the rants because I have learned in the past week that I should not complain of the things I am doing, especially if it's for Him. It is hard, but I don't have to make it known to other people -- it would just between me and my God. And I really am ready to give up what I promised to give up to Him. Even if my mind is telling me that if I give it up, I would miss the chance of having what I want. But then I would be reminded that what I see for myself is not what God sees, and what I want is not necessarily the best for me. He knows what is best, and I am holding on to His promise, because I know that He has something better in store for me.

So now my status is: God is enough. AMEN.

On other news, I'm quite nervous for RESM. Please please do pray for it. Thank you very much!

God bless everyone.


To be with you my God
is all I ever desire.
Oh God is enough for me,
Nothing else will ever be,
And I am satisfied
For I have found my peace.
- God is Enough

I was on semi-panic mode last night for thesis. And then I listened to 98.7 for my nightly Christian music fix. They played Who Am I by Casting Crowns and I started to pray.

I opened Tomorrow Can Be Beautiful by Harold J. Sala to the day's devotional. I read it earlier but I didn't pay attention to it too much. I reread it, and was surprised at the day's entry, for it fit my semi-panic mode.

Pray as though everything depends on God, and work as though everything depends on you.

Perfect, just perfect. God surely knows how to calm me down.

Thesis night again last night, and thankfully, we made a lot of progress. Thanks for all the prayers and those who replied:

Sige sige...kasama kayo sa prayers. ü Good luck. Ayos yan. Ingats, hehe.

God bless Tins! Love ko kaw...but God loves you more. Hhmwah! Ingat kayo!

Okiedokie tinaaaa. Good luck. May God's will be done!Ü Be blessed!Ü

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I like it how I bond with my YFC friends in DLSU now. I have a definite soul sister (Bea!) and as well as a Sex and the City groupie (haha...that's me, Jade, Lara and Bea). I like it how we can talk about God freely, and how we could all go to mass without hesitation, how people actually go out of the way to make another person feel loved, how we could all talk about what's bothering us, and be assured that someone is actually listening and all that. I missed it.

It's not that I don't get the same treatment from my non-YFC friends. It's just that I missed all these things -- the way everyone in the community is a brother and a sister.

Kaya sa mga hindi pa YFC dyan! Sali na. Haha. Ginawa daw bang pang-evangelize. But seriously, I'm inviting you all to join. It's fun, I promise. :D

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(musings about an ex friend)

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There's one thing I want to say, but I don't think I'll say it. I'll wait for what God wants me to do about it. If He wants me to do something about it at all.

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Yesterday's word of wisdom from Tomorrow Can Be Beautiful by Harold J. Sala.

Make getting to know God a priority in your life.

Amen! Like what Bea said, "We don't just believe in God, we KNOW God." :D

...Sam. She's the rightmost one in the upper graphic, the pink one.

Whee. Finally got it. My brother and I was actually hoping for a 20GB each, but there wasn't any available, so we got a 40GB (his) and a mini (mine). It's okay, because I want a big one for my files, and I can manage with my mini. :D

Wheee. Haha. My brother and I went from Greenbelt to Glorietta to Megamall to Shangri-la and finally to Galleria before we got the best deal. :D

Why Sam? I don't know, actually. I think it's because I'm hooked on Danny Phantom lately. Sam is the name of his best friend.

Jogging would be more interesting now. Haha.

Thanks to my parents for this.