Stop Think
Aliya Parcs

Here we go again
Falling in love again
Falling in love all over
We thought we've seen the end
Thought it was over then
But the feeling's back
And we're was starting over

Hanging conversations
Silly accusations
We never made it through
Cause me and you
We never had a chance
And now we're taking another

Stop, think, wait a minute
Is it love that we really feel?
We've been hurting bad
We've been hurt before
Don't you fall until we know for sure
Stop, think, wait a minute
Is it love that we really feel?
We've been there before
We've been through that door
Don't you fall until we know for sure

Here we go again
Taking a chance again
Finding ourselves together
Falling in love again
And losing it all again
Watching the world go by
As we're starting over

Hanging conversations
Silly accusations
We never made it through
Cause me and you
We never had a chance
And now we're taking another

Stop, think, wait a minute
Is it love that we really feel?
We've been hurting bad
We've been hurt before
Don't you fall until we know for sure
Stop, think, wait a minute
Is it love that we really feel?
We've been there before
We've been through that door
Don't you fall until we know for sure

Playing the fool together
Playing the game too long
Thought we were wising up
But we're starting over
I don't care if we're wrong

Stop, think, wait a minute
Is it love that we really feel?
We've been hurting bad
We've been hurt before
Don't you fall until we know for sure
Stop, think, wait a minute
Is it love that we really feel?
We've been there before
We've been through that door
Don't you fall until we know for sure

Gotta think, gotta think, gotta think it through, no, no
Stop, think, wait a minute
Is it love, that I really feel?

Last night, there wasn't any electricity. Naturally. I was expecting it to happen, so I charged my laptop, my cellphones and bought new batteries for the Discman. So when the electricity went out while I was watching Star Circle Quest, I got my discman and listened to Kitchie Nadal's album. A little while later, electricity went back and then went out again. Around 9, I went inside my room because I could not think of anything else to do (and I don't want to use my laptop yet).

But I didn't sleep immediately. I got out my flashlight, my journal and wrote on it TV-style...under a flashlight. :D It was fun writing that way, even if I know it's such a strain to my eyes. ^^; I got to write about a lot of things, and I needed that because I can't seem to have alone moments lately.

And then when it was 10, I stopped writing, turned off my Discman and my flashlight, and prayed. I kept on missing my prayer time since I set it, and last night was a perfect time to talk to God. Though I did kind of fell asleep on the part when I was about to pray for myself...haha. I would suddenly find myself mumbling other words that is not a part of my prayers. ^^;

When I woke up, everything was back to normal. :D Cool eh? And my mom said the storm was out of the country already. Whoa. Thank YOU, Lord. :D

So CURPLAN was moved, NETWORK was also moved (I don't know when)...but I think we'll have ORIENT2 tomorrow. :D Which is okay with me.

Anyway, let's all pray for the victims of the typhoon.

And by the way, do you have a copy yet? Go grab one now! If you want a copy but can't find it, you can order it from me, and I'll find a way to get it to you. :D P85 lang! :D

from lifestyle network: (of all channels)

when there's something you want to do but you stop yourself from doing because you know it's not right, you end up wanting to do it more than ever.

how true. how very true.

i wonder when my brother would finish baking those cookies.

My Lord, I bow down before You,
singing with joyful praise
for You have made us Your people
How blessed are Your ways,

For You are my God,
Yes, You are my Lord
All praise and thanksgiving,
Your love and kindness shall last for all time
All my praises, I will give to You.

And all of my strength
and all that I do today
I will do for You O Lord

I'm tired. I want schoolwork to be over already. PLEASE? I want to be on vacation! I want to go to the party on Friday! I want to go to my dad's and spend time with my family! I want vacation.

*sigh*

I'm so tired, I can't even think straight. I need to relax. I did get enough sleep last night, but my head's full of things I'm supposed to do that I can't even enjoy my sleep. It's frustrating.

God give me the strength to go through the next four days. Please Lord.

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UP COMING:

- CURPLAN final paper (Mon, Dec 13. 3pm)
- PROBSTA case study (Mon, Dec 13, 5pm)
- ISTECH4 final paper (Tues ?)
- ISTECH4 demo (Tues, Dec 14, 3pm)
- NETWORK finals (Mon, Dec 13, 8am)
- ALGOCOM finals (Tues, Dec 14, 1130am)

I can't wait for Tuesday afternoon, when everything will be OVER.

[from an email]

In a dream, GOD told me, that I could pick up a man I like from his fields. But I have to choose only one. Once na nakapili na ako, I have to raise my hand and say I finally found him, then go back to GOD for praise. But, he has this condition, na I could never turn back. Once nalampasan ko, I should move forward. Sabi ko, GOD won't give me rotten crops of men. i have been a good daughter and I deserve to be with a good man.

So my journey began ...... As I went through the field, nakita ko ang iba't ibang klase ng lalake. Some were tempting me to pick them up. Pero sabi ko, baka may mas gwapo, mas mabait, mas matalino, mas masipag, mas mahal ako sa dulo ng field na ito. I let go. Once. Twice. Believing that in the end of the field is my prince, waiting for me.

Then I saw a man. He saw me while I was there picking up crops in GOD's field. He looked at me straight eye. And I don't know why, pero there is something in him that I longed for. Pero di pwede. I have to make it to the end of the field. I have to see the right prince. If habang lumalayo ako, nakakakita ako ng ganitong klase ng lalake, baka in the other end may mas hihigit pa sa kanya. Until, I reached the end of the field. GOD asked me "Di ba napakakulit mo, araw raw nagdadasal ka na magkaroon ng partner in life, but ngayon bakit wala kang dala?"

"My crops are all fresh and good. There is none there na di maganda. All for the picking." I answered. "I thought I would see someone at the end of your crops, my LORD, wala na pala."

Each steps to perfection na hinahanap ko is a step to nothingness. I have met someone in my path but I did let him go. Believeing na there is someone better, at the end of your field. God said, "I'm sorry my child, but you have to face reality. I have given you enough time to choose. Face these consequences."

Then I said, "I'm sorry that I wasn't brave enough to raise my hand in the middle of the field and commit myself to someone. I was not ready to face the challanges of life with someone I thought was of lesser value than me.. I'm sorry."

Nagising akong umiiyak, saying sorry to GOD and to my life. Then I realize that GOD is giving me another chance to choose, but not in his field but in the fields of uncertainty. Now I'm looking at the one looking at me straight eyed wondering if he is the one. What is the meaning of all my efforts and wealth, I may become the best doctor but to whom will I share my care and love for all the days of my life.

Sa lahat ng dalaga at binata sa group, think about this. We are not getting any younger. Explore GODS field. But please respect other fields.

My laptop almost died today. Its adaptor exploded and I was panicking at the thought of having to go through the rest of finals without it. I have my CURPLAN paper here, ISTECH4 system and all ALGOCOM slides that I'm supposed to study. I couldn't possibly live without it for tomorrow.

So I called my brother and after a short while, he agreed to meet me at Glorietta so we can bring this to Electroworld. Micko accompanied us, and when we got to Electroworld, they told us it would take a week to get it fixed, and if we want faster service, we should go to the Toshiba Service Center at Buendia.

My brother didn't bring a car, so we commuted all the way to Buendia. Micko left already. Thank God they got the adaptor replaced immediately. On the way back, my brother and I walked all the way from Buendia to Makati Avenue to Glorietta. Whew.

And since I'm not allowed to commute by myself when I have my laptop with me, my brother dropped me off at school pa. Of course, I had to pay the fare, but what the heck. :D I had fun with him.

If ever mapadpad ang Kuya ko dito...lemme just say:

I LOVE YOU KUYA!

*mwah* [yuck...haha!]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, VIDA!


Tanda tanda! Hahaha. Hindi naman halata kaya okay lang. Many many more birthdays to come! Haha...marami rami na tayo napagsamahan...sana dumami pa! More chismax memories to come! (parang yung tinext ko to sayo ano)

*great big hugs*

Salamat sa lahat ng napagsamahan natin. Haha. Ang drama ano. Haha. Pero seryoso. College wouldn't have been the same without you.

May God bless you more this year. Haha. Labyuuuuuu!

I remember one time, I was writing in my offline journal and suddenly it hit me: what if I was called to a life of singlehood?

It was actually quite a scary thought...because it means everything that I'm feeling right now is actually kind of useless if that is true. What if lang, diba?

But like I said, if it's God's will for me, then...what can I do?

Anyway, I bought Wait for Me by Rebecca St. James yesterday and this paragraph reminded me of those thoughts:

"If you're a girl, perhaps you've grown up with the desire to be rescued by a knight in shining armor. If you're a guy, maybe you'e thought about being the knight who rescues his princess. In either case, is it only a dream or is it a God-given desire purposely placed within you by God Himself?

"I believe that God has placed 'The Dream' inside each one of us, unless He has specifically called you to singleness."

New hope? Haha. Ay ewan. :p

I want this song to be sung at my wedding.

Wait For Me
Rebecca St. James

Darling, did you know that I
I dream about you
Waiting for the look in your eyes
When we meet for the first time
Darling, did you know that I
I pray about you
Praying that you will hold on
Keep your loving eyes only for me

I am waiting for
Praying for you, darling
Wait for me too
Wait for me as I wait for you
I am waiting for
Praying for you, darling
Wait for me too
Wait for me as I wait for you
Darling, wait

Darling did you know that I dream about life together
Knowing it will be forever
I'll be yours and you'll be mine
And darling, when I say
Till death do usn part
I'll mean it with all of my heart
Now and always, faithful to you

I am waiting for
Praying for you, darling
Wait for me too
Wait for me as I wait for you
I am waiting for
Praying for you, darling
Wait for me too
Wait for me as I wait for you
Darling, wait

Now I know you may have made mistakes
But there's forgiveness and a second chance
So wait for me darling
Wait for me
Wait for me

I am waiting for
Praying for you, darling
Wait for me too
Wait for me as I wait for you
I am waiting for
Praying for you, darling
Wait for me too
Wait for me as I wait for you
Darling, wait



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It seems like my latest entries are all about this: love. Haha. Lord, I sure hope You are preparing me for this...and help me to allow myself to be prepared. Para astig.

Hi everyone. I'm starting this little project, and I need your help. This is an advance Valentine's Day project, because it's going to be perfect for that time. It just hit me to do this the other day, when I finished reading Wait for Me by Rebecca St. James.

Anyway, the project is I'm making a compilation of songs that talk about true love, waiting for The One and sexual purity, and I need your help because I only have four songs with me. ^^; These are the songs I have:

1. I Promise - Jaci Velasquez
2. Wait for Me - Rebecca St. James
3. Let it Be Forever - Avalon
4. The Ring - Nicole C. Mullen

I'm planning to have at least a minimum of 10 songs in it, and a max of 17. If you know other songs that speak of the same topics, please do post the title of it here. The songs don't have to be by Christian artists. The important thing is that it conveys the message.

Thank you!

Give Me One Reason
by ZOEGirl


Give me one reason to live without Him
Give me one reason to walk away
I know you don’t understand this feeling,
how can I show,
that He is the reason i have to let you go.

I’ve tried so hard to change your mind
I always thought that you’d understand the reasons why
why I don’t want to do the things that I used to do
Now that my heart and my soul belong to God and God alone
Every nights a fight to make it through,
I can’t deny I’m still in love with you
but how can you expect me to walk with Him and give myself to you.

Boy I still long for your embrace
But what I found in God, oh it could never, never be replaced
Still I pray for the chance
as you slip through my hands you come around
My hearts so far away from the words I’m trying to say
Wish I could hold you both and still be true,
there’s only one thing left for me to do
Baby I love you, but I cant stay with you unless you love Him too.

I found the path that I got to take
The journey back to the old way,
got a chance to take, sacrifice to make,
whatever it takes I won’t turn away.


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Ang ganda nung song ano. Astig.

Greetings from Saipan. I haven't been able to post anything or go online because there wasn't any Internet here at my dad's house. --; Now there is, but I can't log in to Y!M or Gmail, which is...bah. But then again, I got to read, so it's okay. Hehe.

Been having fun here, but my Christmas was awfully quiet. I miss Christmas in the Philippines, but then...it was fine spending it here with my family. I got to buy lots of stuff in Guam, and I got to do lots of thinking too. :D

2004's about to end, and there's still this something that I pray would be over soon, seeing I finally acted upon it before I left. This year's been...an adventure. Probably the most eventful year ever. And I'm grateful for every single thing that happened.

Anyway, maybe if I try to reconnect, I'll get a better connection? Hope so. God bless everyone. :D Miss ko na kayo!

well what do you know, another year passes by.

and here's the year that was
+ Batangas Invasion -- first ever outing with the Spaniards
+ photography -- AD-FOTO with Sir Mike and the IST people
- one year of everything that happened between the two of us
+ spending Valentine's day in a photo shoot
- being sad on V-day because of other reasons
+ underground stuff ^^;
- great big breakdown in the photo lab
+ seeing how much my IST blockmates rule
- underground stuff not pushing through and realizing that one friend of mine is really a good friend
- some friends getting into a fight because of political stuff
- two friends getting into a fight before my birthday
+ turning 18
+ getting my laptop (whee)
+ INTROSE overnight
+ 18th birthday celebration! (and all that happened here)
+ knowing how much my college friends love me for going all the
way to Cainta for my debut (awww)
- more issues between friends
+ Los Banos with IST blockmates
- failing ANMATH3 and Mito saying goodbye to DLSU
+ writing in an offline journal again
+ bringing back my YFC life
+ "surprise" despedida for Jondy
+ getting to talk to him about our issues
+ going to Thailand
- my dad leaving for Saipan
+ start of junior year
+ dorming
- some emotional rollercoaster with him
- conflicts with a friend
+ IST party
+ joining LIVEtheLIFE mag
- conflict with a friend being blown out of proportion, and all ending to me
+ being able to see how many friends I truly have because of their support (aww)
+ ISTECH3 overnights, drinking sessions and more confusion
+ getting my wisdom tooth removed!
- some kind of depression over some issues
- feeling invisible
+ joining MYX Barkada VJ and being shown on TV
+ Spanish Outback -- Montalban and San Mateo with the Spaniards
+ reviving my YFC life through Campus Based
+ Discovery Camp in Antipolo with YFC-DLSU, YFC-ADMU and YFC-CSB
+ Woodstruck
+ Green Archers being the champions for Season 67 :D
+ his birthday, the final letter and pretending nothing happened
+ someone making me happy all over again. ^^;
+ Animo Camp and getting to know a lot of Ateneas
+ LIVEtheLIFE launch, getting published in print media
+ writing my first novel
- typhoons
+ handing God my "love life pen". (single for life? ha ha!)
+ going to Saipan/Guam for vacation
- Asia Tsunami


I made this prediction waaaay back the start of the year, and I said that I have a feeling that things will be different this year, I just knew it. And what do you know, it is quite different than 2003. Whoa. But I'm thankful. For every single thing that happened to me. Good or bad, it's still a blessing from God.

So now, as the year ends, I'm wishing everyone a happy new year. I hope that 2005 will be just as good, or even better for all of us. Personally, I think 2005 will be a good year, though a bit quieter than this year was. Basta, whatever God's plans are, then let it be. I'm all His.

Happy 2005 everyone. Here's to the year that was. *cheers*

Oh yeah, and I can't wait to go home.