Fresh start.

This is a journal where I can post the things that make my life bearable. The nice things, and whatnot. And sometimes, when the concrete girl needs to break down, here's the place to be.

Icons from Mikko and Macy.

Enjoy.

"Yung concept ng project niyo, malaki ang potential."

Thank you for the ego boost.

Excuse me, hindi lang ikaw ang pinag-uusapan namin.

Stop the paranoia, please. We have better things to talk about.

Realization for today: Mas gugustuhin ko pag magkaroon ng love life problems kaysa sa magkaroon ng friendship problems.

BAKIT?

At least pag sa love life, you're in love, in some way. Kahit medyo problematic, in love ka pa rin. Hehe. I can see Ms. Hernandez's point already.

Pag sa friendship problems kasi, merong ipit, merong naiiwan, may nang-iiwan, may nalaglag and all those shit. Gets ba? Mas magulo, mas madugo.

Kaya to forget about my friendship issues, gusto ko kiligin tonight. Doesn't matter if it's about me or someone else, basta kilig, okay na!


Oh yeah! :D A happy point today! I wrote my first few Flash Action Script. Wohoo. Starting to like playing with Flash MX already. \m/

I realized that I've been too consumed with negativity the past week that it's weighing me down. I slept for 7 hours today, but when I woke up, I was still tired. Ice cream therapy helps, but only for a while.

So I decided to make my own happy pill. I read all the past letters I have in my room -- 3rd year and 4th year palanca letters, SHOUT letters, SALIKSIK notes, Youth Camp letters and even my email inbox and YM chat archives to read all those good things that people say, and it just made me feel a whole lot better. Awww.


(some of the contents of my happy pill)

I'm going to look back here whenever I need some cheering up.

I found this in one of my palanca letters last Sunday while I was cheering myself up.

"If other people have a problem with you, it's THEIR problem, not yours."

How appropriate.

Godd morning!

READ ME!

Be enlightened.

"Hindi ka masama, nagkamali ka lang."

"I hope you're okay na.Ü"

"Basta if you need to talk, andito lang ako. Relax ka nalang."

"Wag mo na iyakan, sayang lang luha mo. You have a lot of friends left naman eh."

"Si Tina ang isa sa pinakatotoong tao na kilala ko."




Tiring day yesterday. Emotionally and physically. I need a rest.

I wasn't suppose to go to the "crossover" that Louie and the others planned, but then I ended up going even if I just ate lunch. Grabe ang baboy ano. Haha.

I was doing just fine until I succumbed to the desserts. I ate a slice of Black Forest, a slice of Brazo de Mercedez and this strawberry cream puff thing. The last one tasted so good that Mae gave me another slice.

Anyway, I was resting my tummy when all of a sudden I started feeling sick. I thought I just needed to rest more but then I felt the food going up. I thought I just needed to burp, but it felt like the food would go out of my mouth when I open my mouth.

It was all in vain though. Suddenly I felt the food going back out in my throat (and up my nose too...yuck), so I bowed down and then threw up on the tissue. Then Louie and the others looked for the CR and Zeena and Vida accompanied me there as I threw up.

Kadiri. Haha. But then again, the vomit didn't taste as bad as I thought it was. Haha...it actually still tasted like strawberry! Yuck noh.

After throwing up, I couldn't eat anymore of course, except for a bowl of chocolate ice cream. I do think I got my P400 worth. Hehe. What an experience.

Oh yeah, and thanks to Vida, I got to taste sashimi. Yummy.

Next week daw uli, sa birthday ni Mito. Hehe. :D

Thanks to Zeena and Vida for "taking care" of me earlier. Wehehehe.

What a week. :D

Shopping is good for the soul.

Total purchases made today!
- a pink and purple bed sheet and pillow case for my bed at the dorm (wish I could've bought the one with the comforter...but it was too expensive.)
- a Spongebob Squarepants top (P75 only!)
- 3 jeans!!! (one from Bobson, one from Bench and one from U2)
- a logbook and a no smoking sign for the dorm
- Smart prepaid cellcard :D

All thanks to my mom of course.

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Sickness and whatnot

On a not so light note. I underwent (tama ba to?) a physical checkup earlier and I found out that I have UTI. =/ Darn. I'm banning myself from alcohol for this week, until this is gone. Hay.

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Birthday greeting!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO OUR TREE OF good AND EVIL , MITO!

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Modeling and whatnot

Live the Life Magazine is coming out on September! Bili kayo ha! :D Hehehe...P75 lang. Ha? :D Surprises galore para sa mga nakakakilala sa akin. :D

It's amazing how much powers we give to other people to influence our lives. One move they make, one word they say, or even one text message they send, and they can either make you fly high up in the air or tumble down the depths of sadness. It's scary, because it's like we're giving more power to them over our emotions and states of mind than we do ourselves.

I guess it's always like that, especially with people you love.


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A simple text message can make it a lot better. Even if it's just a quote. Still.

"F ppol r tryn 2 pull u dwn, b proud of it! It only means 1 thng: U R above dem! & 1 sure rson y dey wud h8 u! bcoz dey wantd 2 bcom jst lyk u!Ü god bles ü"

Totally unrelated to my situation, but it's the sender that matters.

I want to buy a big looong roll of bubble wrap and just pop them whenever I feel stressed out. I wonder where I could get them. Ynna told me she has some, but she hasn't brought it to the dorm yet.

And speaking of which. I'll be at the dorm at 5:30 am tomorrow. --; Jeez. We'll be using the coding car that's why. Hay.

So I better go toddle off and take a bath so I can sleep in a while. I was supposed to call my best friend, who I just heard of some news recently, and I wanted to know how he was. Turns out he was there at home all along. Hay nako.

Good news: I am officially clear of UTI. Yay.

I better go take a shower.

5.45 in the WEBDEVE MP2. Cool.

Tina will not get sick.

I better rest. I have a scratchy throat and I still have a dentist appointment tomorrow. Bactidol, here I come.

ARGH....

I didn't develop a fever from my sore throat, but now I'm nursing an asthma attack. =/ I don't want to be sick. I can't have asthma attacks now -- I'm about to get my wisdom tooth removed on Saturday and it won't be removed if I'm having an asthma attack!

GRRR.

I want to sleep at the dorm tonight. But then again maybe we can make a compromise next week -- that I can sleep at the dorm one night or something. Hehe. Like on Monday night 'coz my Mom's coming over.

And speaking of which, my mom's leaving for Saipan on August 20. *sigh*

Better get back to work. :D

Thinking about the next three weeks is making my head hurt already.

August 11 - ANMATH3 quiz 4
August 13 - ISTECH3 defense (6 pm)
August 18 - ANMATH3 quiz 5 (???)
August 19 - WEBDEVE project due (Ebay using JSF...what the heck is JSF????!)
August 19 - VD-PROD finals
August 20 - BIOCOL1 finals
August 21 - WEBDEVE finals




I don't know how the heck I will be able to squeeze in all those activities in the next three weeks. I will definitely be using sleep. That's why I need to take care of my health as much as possible nowadays or else we're dead.


I miss sleeping at the dorm. I didn't get to sleep there the entire week because I slept at the condo with Ramie and Micko for the ISTECH3 project. I miss sleeping there -- the noise of the people, the way the neighbors come in and pass by anytime and say hi and do something to take a break, my roommates, the spaciousness of the place. GAWD. I want to sleep there next week! I want, I want! It's just that what if the two of them get caught in the dorm. But then again we're doing projects. And...it's less hassle because it's a lot closer to Gokongwei than Burg is. Haaaaay.

It made me homesick in a way. I want to sleep at the dorm!!!

There are other things I want to talk about...but then I can't seem to find words for it. I better get back to tracing the background images for the ISTECH3 project in Flash. *toddles off*